Crunch Time

It's getting down to the end of the school year and everyone is freaking out. It's Sunday and I get to head home Thursday pretty early so I just need to get through these last few days. It's going to be really crappy

What do I want?

I don't know what I thought would change by telling you that I've liked you, but I know it wasn't nothing. I wanted something different. I feel like we talk even less now; maybe that's what changed. It's getting harder and harder to be around you, because I know that when we do spend time together it means nothing to you. You say I'm a good friend, but outside of class we talk via texts. We've me outside of class once. It seems like I'm blowing this out of proportion, but I really do like you a lot. I'm sure he's got things that I don't have and you obviously connect, but I don't see how. When you broke up you made him seem like a pretty unchangeable asshole. And now you're dating him.

So Much to Say, No Time

There is no way that I will ever be able to tell her exactly how I feel, and I don't think I'll ever try. I know I feel like it would be different with me, but I don't know him and why it didn't work out the first time, or why you're trying a second time. I've laid out what you need to know, and now that you know it, nothings changed. I'm not asking for anything to change because that would be selfish. Whenever we talk, I feel like I'm bothering you. I wish we could spend more time together. I would give up all my free time to waste it with you, but you'll never know that.